Nightmares – Shared Story #3

Nightmares – How can you win a fight while you are sleeping?

Nightmares or Jesus

I used to have nightmares. I had them when I was a kid. I had them when I was pregnant with my children. I actually had started having daytime nightmares after my children were born. I would have nightmares while I was awake…you know just envisioning horrible things like you would in a nightmare, except I was awake.  I thought I was losing my mind, at one point, because it was getting completely out of control.

When I was around the age of 6, my parents divorced and my two brothers and I lived with our mother.  We saw our father sporadically over the years but he wasn’t an active part in our lives.  I said all of that to say this – my mother was the one person in the world that I counted on to always be there.  So, I started having nightmares around the age of 10 or 11 and the recurring theme was about her getting injured or killed.  It was car wrecks, house fires, or something equally as traumatic, night after night.  I would wake up and go to her room and ask to sleep with her.  Most of the time she said yes, thank the Lord!  Anyway, I don’t recall when those dreams stopped haunting me but I do remember how terrible they were.

Throughout my teenage years and up until I married at the age of 27, I would still have bad dreams but it wasn’t an every night occurrence.  After I found out that I was pregnant with my daughter, I started having nightmares again, on a regular basis.  I think I was trying to mentally prepare for protecting my baby and the fear and anxiety would manifest in my dreams.  My two children are about 1 and ½ years apart in age so these years were fairly rough on me as a new mommy.  Add in the fact that you don’t get much sleep anyway when you have a newborn…. And you can see my predicament.  When my son was born, he was pre-mature by about 8 weeks.  Even though he was early, he was fine and we brought him home 2 days later.  He slept until it was about time for his original due date and then he started crying and didn’t stop belly-aching until he was almost 8 months old.  I was sleep-deprived and my husband was exhausted, too.  We didn’t have anyone who stepped in to help.  I remember just crying all the time and being in a kind of zombie state.  That’s when I started having the “daymares”, as I called them.  I would be awake and start thinking about horrible things happening to my kids.  My mind was running away on me.  I look back and just wonder how in the world we made it through it.  (It’s at these times that I know that the Lord was carrying us!)

My husband and I have been in church since a few months after we were married.  I am not sure when I heard the Scripture verse that says, “Get thee behind me Satan”.  I do know this, however, that verse was my stronghold for years.  I found out that Satan has no choice but to flee at the command of Jesus.  No, I am not Jesus but his Spirit lives within me and I have authority in HIS name.  So, I began calling on Jesus and rebuking Satan, as often as I needed to do it.  Yes, I felt absolutely silly doing this at first but I was battling a spiritual battle and I needed any help I could get.  I was living in fear of losing my mind and I was losing the battle for my marriage and my children.  Everything was in shambles and my enemy was winning and I had nowhere to turn.  So, I turned to Jesus and he received me with open arms.  That’s when the intimate relationship began with me and my Lord.  He loved me.  He lifted me out of the miry clay that I was drowning in, cleaned me up, and he loved me.

So…back to the nightmares!  When I was awake, I had learned how to be an overcomer.  All I had to do was call on Jesus and he took care of those “crazy” daytime nightmares!  It was nice to know that I didn’t have to suffer with that anymore.

Now, what do I do about the attacks of the enemy when I am sleeping?

I decided that if it worked when I was awake, I would try it when I was sleeping.  When I would lie down to go to sleep at night, I would talk to Jesus as I was drifting off to sleep.  At first, I was begging him to help me sleep.  Then, I actually learned how to do the same thing while I was sleeping as I did when I was awake.  In my dreams, I would start screaming JESUS!  There is no way to tell you how many times I have awoken myself and my husband trying to get the words out.  It was like the enemy had his hands around my throat choking me to keep the word “Jesus” from coming out of my mouth.  The longer I applied this in my sleep, the easier it got.  I have screamed myself awake calling on his name and that’s just fine with me.  You should see this smile on my face, as I remember how my friend Jesus rescued me from the enemy, even in my sleep!

It’s been about 8-10 years now since we won this battle!  I have been nightmare-free and daymare-free!  No more anxiety attacks or “sleep-apnea” attacks when I couldn’t breathe.  Call it what you will, but I know what happened.  It may sound silly to someone on the outside looking in but if you have never suffered in this way, you don’t know the extremes that you will go to just to get some peaceful rest.  I know where my help comes from.

I hope that you will share this with anyone you know that suffers with nightmares, especially children.  Please teach them when they are young so that they don’t have to deal with nightmares alone!

Blessings and Sweet Dreams,




6 Replies to “Nightmares – Shared Story #3”

  1. It’s so great for you to share this with people. I personally don’t deal with this but I have a very close friend that does. It’s been a journey for her as well, God is faithful!

  2. Hey Michelle,

    I was drawn in by your post immediately because I also suffer/suffered similar nightmares. They would be awful as a child and usually about my mom dying in horrible ways. I prayed a lot as a teenager about my anxiety and worked on things. It was mostly better until I had my first child and they started again as well. I also rely on the Lord and pray about it and it always gets better when I rely on Him and “draw nigh to God and He will draw nigh to you” and “fleeing from Satan” as well! Thank you for your beautiful, honest post.

    1. Thank you so much, Tiana. At the very core of who I am, I want to help people. If I have been through something and have the victory, I want to pass it on to others to make their journey a little easier. I am glad that you took the time to share with me since we have a had a similar experience. I will be praying for you along the way, whenever God brings this to mind 🙂

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